I think I am always thinking. If I’m not sleeping or not talking then believe me when I say I’m cooking up something in my mind. Sometimes I think it’s an inheritance because most of my family members from dad’s side has been like this. We talk in sleep and we love to daydream. But other times, I think I go into extreme when it comes to think or day dream. I go doing that while eating, walking on the street, sitting, roaming around, staring, wandering and so on.
But when people ask me what I actually think about, I go blank. I am unable to answer as most of the times I don’t know or remember what I was thinking about. My mind drifts in the outer space, floating across the universe [ 😉 ], swimming with the stars. So today, I have decided to list out few of things I think about the most.
Usually, I have a theme and I think about words that justify that theme. I wordify my thoughts if you know what I mean- I put them in a sentence at first and then play with them to make a one-liner or a poem. I start with a word and what it means to me. Then I think about the other words that I think will suit with what I want to say which then is followed by organizing the words to make it a poem or just a line. This happens mostly when I’m thinking about updating my Facebook status. For example, when I think about Happiness I might start with it being temporary or how I do not seek it. Then, I make a line like I do not seekth Happiness but rather joy. This might be changed to something like this:
I do not seek Happiness,
for it excites me no more,
my heart does not flutter
I go dull.
Apart from thinking about writings, I also think about Life (like what is life or the mysteries of life), Existence, Emotions and Feelings, Dreams, and other stuffs. I also happen to think about my past experiences and my future hopes even if I live in present most of the time. But some people I now say I think too much, much more than I should. Because I’m always thinking, I usually spend my time alone. Thinking too much is also one of the reasons why my mood is always swinging to-and-fro. But sadly, I can’t stop it. I can’t shut off my mind and stop thinking.
One of my friends used to tell me that there are two reasons for people to be sad after a thought. It’s because either they regret their past or worry about the future. I have tried not to do so. Therefore, instead I think about other stuffs mentioned above which do stimulate my mind and might make me go mad one day but I’m sure will not make me sad. 🙂